This town don't feel mine

I'm fast to get away.

So this friday I'm going to a Del The Funky Homosapien concert in Los Angeles. It should be a very interesting, exciting moment. Interesting because it'll be my first concert in about 2 months and it'll be my first concert without Benny. Exciting because i'll be seeing one of my favorite artists at the moment. It's a 12 dollar show and it's definately worth more than 12.

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I heard on the radio just yesterday while driving on my new job that an 18 year old OCC student was killed in an accident. He wasn't drunk or anything mind you, but neither was the person he was racing. Complete negligence on his part, and the guy who raced him is getting some possible charges of manslaughter for the death of the driver, and the wounds of the two girls he had in his car. Now I think they should both be punished - even if he's dead - for being immature little shits, but to ruin a mans life with charges of that degree? It doesn't fair, but I learned in 8 hours yesterday that life is only as fair as you make it.

Take my employer for example: Civil Engineer, drives a mercedes, trophy wife, big house, vacations in cabo, blueberry, leather tote bag- that kind of shit. His past was one of the most interesting pasts i've ever had the chance to hear of, not only was he an excellent football player but he played for the Airforce for 2 years until getting the cut for his size. Excellent guy right? Good track record and such and such...but he almost lost his career, his life, for one night of drinking. Makes you think about how fragile everything really is.


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My Eclipse turned out to be more of a bargain than anything. I got the muffler and catalyctic converter fixed about a week ago and i've never heard a car purrr healthier. I did a couple routine changes to it, to help me familiarize myself with auto mechanics. Nothing big, mind you, but I did a fluid flush and replaced a lot of things. It runs like a dream now, I'm waiting for my big financial aid check to come($1,873) so that I can buy it some new speakers, an amp, an ipod hook up, and a new radio(everything in the car is stock, and the speakers are old shitty and blown out). My friend from college works at Harbor Sounds down harbor around warner. He estimated it for me and it'd run about 200~ which is not a bad deal since the place down the street wanted to charge me soemwhere around 400(lol). I'm not retarded. I'm going to head out to a pick your parts soon enough and pick and pull pieces from totaled eclipses to repair what little i can to the interior(missing speaker covers, broken cup holders, little dumb things). So that should be a very sweet update to the car.

On the issue of fixing things better, i'm glad to say i'm back at 180lbs. I know, you're probably thinking that's still fat and nasty, but to that I say fuck you my friend. Going from 212 to 180 is the most refreshing feeling ever. On a downside, I can't digest soda anymore without it feeling lik there's a hole being drilled into my stomach. I can't eat meat without feeling A) fat B) tired and C) sluggish. Strange huh? My mouth waters all the time for a fat thick burger.

Along with those improvements, a totally metro feeling has taken over me. I know being metro is gay, but i'm being totally sarcastic here, hear me out. I took a long hard look at myself and realized that all through high school I was just a big slob and totally depressed. I know now that I was just pretty depressed in high school, for whatever reason, but at least I'm not anymore riiiiight? So anyways I took a look at myself and realized that I didn't take care of myself like I did before, so I started that again with pampering my skin and such, and buying new clothes and feeling better about myself. Gay huh?


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So I leave with my last confession in this virtual journal where I cry out my little heart to the internet public of strangers.

I'm offically over most of my indie-rock music. It's a horrible scene, I mistook the ability to experiment with the inability to have talent. Don't take it the wrong way, a lot of the bands on indie labels DO deserve a record deal over ALL mainstream artists, but a lot of is...pop shit. My brother and my sister have always listened to hip-hop...and I never caught on, honestly. Sure I can recite Warren G's - Regulator and Coolio's- Fantastic Voyage, but I never really took an ear to it. Now I can't honestly turn myself away from it, there's so much room for expansion so much undeveloped talent, and to be honest, it sounds nice in my car.
A list of my current top 5 looks like this:
1. MF Doom
2. Del The Funky Homosapien
3. Kool Keith(yes all his stuff)
4. Modest Mouse
5. Mogwai

I suggest anyone who wanders near this blog take a look at these artists, they're pretty good.

And with that, I dissapear for another week or so till I realize I have a blog and come back to update it.

So long Astoria!

-Rod

oh and here's a pic of me now, in case my bro ever decides to wander back here.

If you smoke like I smoke...

You're high everyday.


Well today was another badass night. I had class from 6am till about 6:30pm and it was pretty average although I did try my chance with the wiminzzzzzzz. I hit on some chicks and it was pretty rad. One of them was this really cute indie chick. It was a bit hard to try to talk to her but I finally got around to talking to her and she was pretty cool. Anyway I got wasted again tonight, even though i've been trying to cut back. But seriously I can't. I 've been doing it forever and I...well I enjoy it a lot. It's fun for me, it's just a way to chill and kick back for me.

Cigarattes?

Let's hope not.

-rod

p.s. i am drunk

The (totally interesting) Cosmic Calendar
Current mood: busy

I figured this was just something of interest, to maybe a handful of you. I'm taking a break from studying to bring you something I think is really cool. I found this particularly interesting because I really like how it puts the vastness of time in a small enough time frame for you to understand it fully. I present to you the mind-blowing Cosmic Calendar.

Pre-December Dates:
January 1 - Big Bang
May 1 - Origin of Milky Way Galaxy

September 9 - Origin Of Solar System
September 14 - Formation of oldest rocks on moon
September 25 - Origin of life on earth

October 2 - Formation of the oldest rocks on earth
October 9 - Date of the oldest fossils(Bacteria and Blue-Green Algae)

November 12 - Date of oldest fossil photosynthetic plants
November 15 - Eucaryotes (first cells with nuclei) begin to flourish

All of recorded history occupies the last ten seconds of December 31, and the time from the waning of the Middle Ages to the present occupies little more than one second. But because we have arranged it that way, the first cosmic year is ending about now. And despite the insignificance of the instant we have so far occupied in cosmic time, it is clear that what happens on or near the earth at the beginning of the second cosmic year will depend on the scientific wisdom and the sensitivity of mankind.

10:30PM First Humans
11:00 Widespread use of stone tools
11:46 Domestication of fire by Peking Man
11:56 Beginning of the most recent glacial period
11:58 Seafarers settle Australia
11:59:20 Invention of Agriculture
11:59:35 Neolithic Civilization, first cities
11:59:50 First dynasties in Sumer and Egypt, development of Astronomy
11:59:52 Hammurabic Lega Code in Babylon, Middle Kingdom in Egypt
11:59:53 Bronze Metallurgy, Mycenian Culture, Trojan War, Olmec Culture, invention of the compass
11:59:54 Iron metallurgy, First Assyerian empire, Kindgom of Israel, found of Carthage
11:59:55 Asokan India, Ch'in Dynasty China, Periclean Athens
11:59:56 Euclidean geometry, Archimedian physics, Ptolemnic astronomy, Roman Empire, birth of Christ
11:59:57 Zero and decimals invented in Indian arthmetic, Rome falls, Muslims conquests
11:59:59 Mayan civilization, Sung Dynasty in China, Byzantine Empire, Mongol Invasion, Crusades
11:59:59 Renaissance in Europe, voyages of discovery, emergence of the experimental method of science

First Second, NEW YEARS DAY:

Widespread development of science and technology, emergence of a global culture, first steps in planetary exploration and the search of extra-terrestial intelligence.

-rod

introduction to the world

Years and years i seem to be oblivious to what goes on around me. Not in the sense that i don't pay attention to world events or such things. I just assume that my financial situation is always secure, that I will always have my hand led through whatever tough times I hit and that more or less, everything will always be fine.

II know that it won't be. I know that at some point in your life you have to stand up and grow up...learn to walk etc. etc. but for some reason it takes a lot for me to actually achieve that. I guess you can say that today will be the end of my idiotic lifestyle. Today will be the end of past childish addictions and the beginning of a long, dull boring but fulfilling life.

In my life I have been provided with every little thing i've ever needed or wanted. Not once have I ever gave back to those that helped me and provided for me. I have been a little immature asshole about the whole situation whether it be money owed or being punctual. I think at some point you have to realize that there won't always be those training wheels. I'm in a point in my life where I understand what goes on around me, and I am able to percieve what goes on with those around me, but unable to look inside me and tell myself what is important. Friends are not on the top of that list of providers, they are companions and sometimes...you have to set them aside to make peace with yourself first.

Many of my impulse purchases have been from my inability to control what I want. I don't understand why I have this impulse to need things, but I know I do. I have an impulse to want the NOW then to plan for the THEN even though, it will ultimately become the NOW eventually. Regardless of what I do. It's a lack of concentration, and now i'm going on a quest to see if i can really do what I hope I can do. Concentrate.

-rod